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This is the page about me, my life, and raising awareness of mental health issues. Feel free to ask questions.

Me

So, i think it is best to be honest with you as although i hate talking about it, i want to raise awareness of mental health, and the best way to do that is by speaking from own experiences, so here i go. I am not going to go into detail, i am just going to outline some issues which many people suffer with. Before i start, please don't judge me, i am still Eve, a girl with many interests and aspirations in life, however i lug around with me destroying thoughts, like many othere people out there.

Here We Go...

So, i have always had an unhealthy relationship with food, whether it be over-eating or under-eating, but it all came to a head when i was 11. Some family shit went down which is private to me, and i finally took control of my over-eating and began to lose weight. The weight-loss snowballed due to many factors, and i found myself ending up in a mental health adolescent unit when i was 12 and a half, spending 6 months there and my 13th birthday, re-gaining weight and facing my fears. When i left, i started restricting food again and found myself in another adolescent unit after i had been on a general hospital ward, when i was 13and a half, yet again spending another 6 months of my life and 14th birthday there. After that admission, due to a strict regime and aftercare that was prescribed, i ended up maintaining my weight and life for 1 and a half years...but i wasn't in control, my parents were. It was when we finished with the aftercare that things started to decline again, and i found purging as a way to control my weight, able to gide it from my family and friends, therefore not letting them into the secret that my thoughts were once again controlling me. When they found out and my weight slowly started to decline, i was placed into another adolescent unit which i am currently in now, however, i'm nearing discharge...i can't wait for that day. I am spending most of the time at home now, but it will be another 4 and a half months of my life wasted.
 Although i'm in the best place that i have been in for a while (in my head), i am not willing to let go of my issues, they still give me comfort and help me to control my life. Many people will think i'm stupid as they are ultimately destructive thoughts, but unfortunately i haven't reached a point yet where i can let it go, so for now, these thoughts will sail along with me, bring me shit times, but hopefully i'll have just as many good times, it's just learning to live with the shit that you have and learning to let go. At the moment i'm too scared to let go, but maybe one day i will...however i don't see it yet. However, i won't stop fighting to stay out of hospital, as i don't want to go back, i want to live my life the best i can with this crappy thing with me. I know it's my choice to keep it, and i'm not asking for anything, other than people to appreciate that mental health issues are bloody wide spread, and very easily hidden, but that doesn't mean that these individuals are freaks, we may feel it, but at the end of the day, it's not something we can prevent or change, but we can be more aware and learn to live with it.
Schizophrenia, Bipolar Disorder, Anxiety Disorder, Depression, Anorexia Nervosa and Bulimia Nervosa are just some of the many mental health issues that people suffer with.  Please, please, please help others out there, don't treat them differently just because of their 'issues', just view them as an individual and judge them how you would judge any of your friends, after all, we are all human beings and should be treated equally.